Obsessive-compulsive disorder ( Read more... )

What happened? Thursday I went and volunteered and all was well. Only I let my HALT get away from me, I left hungry, I left lonely, I left tired. And there were calls on my mind, calls from folks that always seem to find you at your weakest points. I kept telling myself, you need to eat, you need to rest, you need to go out and socialize with ( Read more... )

Yesterday was supposed to hang with some friends and have Shaolin come over and teach. He came by, but they didn't/couldn't for various reasons. Learned a little circle walking, had lunch, and watched a movie that I didn't review for once. Ended up getting into an argument over whether suicide is selfish or not and I never got the full bodywork ( Read more... )

THERAPY DAY TODAY!


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Why, yes, I have been whiny all day! How did you guess?

Comprehensive List of Tasks

• grooming = yes, although I'm already dreaming of the day I can shave my legs again
  
• healthy meal = do Cheezits count? (no)
  
• Spanish = 1/2 pts, worked on lesson 15 a little
  
• coping = yes, did a reevaluation (pros/cons) and added to my about page on this online ( Read more... )

Just for the sake of charting it later, I'm going to throw in the Monday & Tuesday check-ins.
Monday List of Tasks
run, stretch, grooming, meal, Spanish, chore, coping = all no

Medication = 1/2 points
sober = no
compulsions = no
extras = no
TOTAL SCORE = 0.5/13 = 4% Did I mention I didn't do ANYTHING toward my recovery?

Tuesday List of Tasks ( Read more... )

My OCD had me stuck this morning. I had a slowtime schedule and a regular recovery schedule and my brain couldn't decide which to do, thus locking me into inactivity. Finally managed to veer toward my normal routine again, at least until my surgery. Many, many revelations today, some of which I haven't mentally or emotionally processed yet.

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After that long last post, I wanna make this short. Real short. Finally finished my disability paperwork, took four hours, lots of writing by hand, and my hands may soon fall off.

Comprehensive List of Tasks

• strength exercises (well, I thought about doing them, does that count?)
  
• grooming (basic, done)
  
• meal (no time to cook, STILL haven't made that ( Read more... )

Went out drinking last night and ran into Trouble, who was just getting back (drunk) from KT's memorial. That was fun. *ahem ( Read more... )

Have spent most of the day doing just about anything to avoid paperwork, including shopping, errands, and just vaguely staring into space. So that plan was kind of a bust. And I still haven't made the pie, or the piecrust for that matter. Yes, I did spend a jaw-dropping amount of money.

Comprehensive List of Tasks

• strength exercises (completed ( Read more... )